you make the world beautiful, love.
here's what i think. fuck it. fuck adolescence. fuck all the times you thought you meant more to someone than you actually did. fuck anyone who's ever stabbed you in the back. fuck falling for someone who will only crush you. fuck teachers and their high expectations of you. fuck parents who think they know what's best. fuck anyone who tried to tell you what to do. fuck anyone anyone who told you, you couldn't do something. fuck anything that's ever come in the way of your happiness. fuck being human, making mistakes, and feeling emotions.Labels: doubt, philosophy, quotes
i was not sleeping
I still remember that night as if it were last night.
The first night you saw me undress while I changed into my pyjamas. The first night I slipped under the covers with you. The first night we were spending the night together. The room was so dark, it was almost pitch black - save the sliver of moonlight that danced through the sheer curtains. You didn't know it at that time, but I was so nervous. You weren't the first boy I've shared a bed with but for some reason, I felt like my heart was about to leap out of my chest. In one smooth motion, you took me into your arms. You gazed down at me as I anxiously looked up at you.
I'm not ready yet...don't make me push you away.
You put your hand on my heart. I caught my breathe and held it for what seemed like an eternity. And then you leaned down and kissed me softly and just held me for the whole night. I wasn't even sure if I loved you yet. But at that moment, I knew you were different. You weren't like the other guys. You didn't rush me or make me feel bad for pushing you away. You were patient.
Patiently waited for me until I was ready. Ready in every way to have you in my life.
go after her.
GO AFTER HER. FUCK, DON'T SIT THERE AND WAIT FOR HER TO CALL, GO AFTER HER BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT YOU SHOULD DO IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE, DON'T WAIT FOR THEM TO GIVE YOU A SIGN CAUSE IT MIGHT NEVER COME, DON'T LET PEOPLE HAPPEN TO YOU, DON'T LET ME HAPPEN TO YOU, OR HER, SHE'S NOT A FUCKING TELEVISION SHOW OR TORNADO. THERE ARE PEOPLE I MIGHT HAVE LOVED, HAD THEY GOTTEN ON THE AIRPLANE OR RUN DOWN THE STREET AFTER ME OR CALLED ME UP DRUNK AT FOUR IN THE MORNING BECAUSE THEY NEED TO TELL ME RIGHT NOW AND BECAUSE THEY CANNOT REGRET THIS AND I ALWAYS THOUGHT I'D BE THE ONLY ONE DOING CRAZY THINGS FOR PEOPLE WHO WOULD NEVER GIVE ENOUGH OF A FUCK TO DO IT BACK OR TO ACT LIKE IDIOTS OR BE ENTIRELY VULNERABLE AND HONEST AND MAKING SOMEONE FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU IS EASY AND FLYING 3000 MILES ON FOUR DAYS NOTICES BECAUSE YOU CAN'T JUST SIT THERE AND DO NOTHING AND BREATHING INTO TELEPHONES IS NOT EVERYONE'S IDEA OF LOVE BUT IT IS THE WAY I CAN RECOGNIZE IT BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT I DO. GO SCREAM IT AND BE WITH HER IN MEANINGFUL WAYS BECAUSE THAT IS BEAUTIFUL AND THAT IS GENEROUS AND THAT IS WHAT LOVING SOMEONE IS, THAT IS RAW AND THAT IS UNGUARDED, AND THAT IS ALL THAT IS WORTH ANYTHING, REALLY.
hunger yourself to death?
Header: Deadly thin - but nobody is guilty;
Written over it: Hi girl, you are the most beautiful as you are right now! and the only thing that really counts are your inner values! It's good to see that there is anybody who understand and take care...
This is what we should be spreading around society: Moments that prove there's more than superficiality to our society. We obsess about food and beauty constantly. Let's stop.
Labels: beauty